yay! passed boards part 2! thank u Jesus! thanks for the the things you've given me even though i dont deserve it. i'm tired, burnt out. but very relieved. thank u!

LOL. this was on an actual website from a store in singapore: "For those with flabby arms, choose a Qipao with three-quarter sleeves to hide the excess flesh." no wonder they say older asian folks are so blunt. ha. i guess it's time to tone up....but meeeeh so lazy. =b

ahhhhhh!!! only 3 days left till boards. btwn the "i'm freaking out" and "don't freak out" and me getting pooped on...i find myself worrying more than i should...

yes you heard me. i was sick friday and sat morning and decided to go for a run to de-stress. freakin 4 blocks from my apt i get pooped on by some stankin bird. it was gross, it was green and i felt a bit go into my eye! yes that is the worst! and being an optometry school student got me worried overboard. my poor roommate had to entertain me and douse my eye with saline to wash out my eye like it was an ocular emergency. i mean talk about luck. she said it was suppose to be good luck for my boards, i said it really didnt need to go into my eye for luck. seriously i was freaked out for a good 5 hours worrying my brains out, while randy was laughing saying it was the funniest thing he heard all day. to think that boy has matured-anything u mention with poo, he will laugh no doubt. plus he was happy to hear the birds have finally found a new target-me instead of him. stankin bf!

anyways, besides the point...if you have time..please pray that i pass my boards, i'm really scared and not in the least bit prepared. been trying to fight off a cold this weekend and uggghh..my health isnt as good as it use to be. your prayers are much appreciated. i know i have been hiding in a hole, but promise when boards are over...i'll be more avail...

love,

shirley

a "noteworthy" post...

F this S...

sooo..my friend told me today how she was struggling with cussing a lot lately. i told her the idea of a "swear jar" and she inadvertantly decided to pull me into the wager to help her with her problem. i haven't felt convicted of the need to clean my words..after all, i find it as a wonderful way to express how i feel on days that are just plain #$%taking away my liberty to cuss is like taking away my freedom of expression. yes, shame on me. i admit i have been cussing a lot more lately now that randy is in cali. he use to be so on my a$$ bout it..saying things like "cant believe that mouth you use to cuss is the same mouth you use to worship." OUCH. yes that did shut me up. but now that he's away...it's like let freedom reign. so anyways, i got suckered in a swear jar, the typical 25 cents per cuss word, all proceeds go to the needy. i'm so glad that the deal is only till xmas. till then, i have 3 hours left to cuss to my heart's content. jk. randy is of course happy with the good news. my roommate named him the fun police. ha.

mood: totally  majorly bummed.  + stressed over boards

i started my "morning" off waking up from a phone call. it was my friend asking if i was going to meet them in the city for lunch. as much as i wanted to see my friend who just got back from the boondocks and was probably embracing every whiff of nyc air as she could, i felt comfortable lying in my bed. i stared at my phone...it was already noon. damn. welcome back t.

as i continued to lay on my bed i started recalling parts of my dream from last night...how my bf was an assassin and was on a killing spree. weird i know. blame it on the stress from studying for boards and yet not recalling a single thing. once again, i am seriously in need of God's miracle...

so back to the daily grind of studying....oh, and i did laundry in the snow today. awesome.